Describing myself

--Originally published at #iTecGDA – METANOIA

Totally listen to this while reading it.

It actually took me a couple of hours of thinking… and I still couldn’t find one word to use. I honestly didn’t even get remotely close but it got me thinking. Who am I? I believe everyone or at least most people try to avoid this topic because it make us uncomfortable, it makes us remember about every little negative detail we have and every time we screwed up. It gives us flashbacks of what we did and what we could have done. However, I realized I’m finally a little past that point of caring about what other people think, at least that much.

As of now in most situations when I remember how much I screwed up or how “cringey” I was I just tell myself: “You are just a tiny little irrelevant bit of the universe and whatever you do won’t mean anything in the large scale of things.” That may sound pessimistic to some people but to me it’s quite the opposite, it makes me feel liberated. Because while it may not matter to anyone else, it matters to me. I am the only one that should care about every effort I make and every decision I take… and I’m finally proud of who I am.

And I’m competitive, one of the most competitive people I know, getting a second place makes me feel bad for days. I expect excellence from me, at least in the  stuff I care about and when I don’t it wrecks me. I  have high expectations of myself because I know I have the potential to be the best.

Now that I have expressed my thoughts I’ll go to the main point. Which words describe me?

NIHILIST

SELF-AWARE

COMPETITIVE

QUICK STUDY (Not really a word but a term so I guess it counts)

WITTY

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